It's okay to feel bad some days. It's okay to feel bad some days. It's okay to feel bad some days. Fear of panic just brings more panic. It's pointless to chastise yourself about a state you didn't make the decision to be in directly. 

I hate wishing I had more of this or that quality of another person, whether it be  physical or expressive. I can only be who I actively work myself out to be. Everything is deliberate, even if its subtle.